Strength will Rise as we Wait upon the Lord.....

I am constantly amazed as God continualy weaves my life. Since being home I have been faced with so many challenges. I was excited to come home, and to continue school this semester, because I feel this is where God wants me. I still feel that way, but I keep feeling like there is a void in my life. In the past I have regreted coming home, because I miss the kids. I do miss the kids but I know that God will bring me back. I have a comfort in my Heart about this, but that is not what has bothering me. I have grown so much in my faith these past few years, especially these past two summers. God has been showing me so much and I have learned so much through others. The friends I have made have impacted me so much and will continue to impact me through this journey here on earth. I long to serve God in ministry. I long to meet the woman of my dreams that God brings to me, and spend the rest of our lives serving side by side in Gods will. I long to serve Gods Children and Care for them, teaching them about Gods Love for them. I long to design schools and dorms that house and educate Gods people and children. I long to show people Gods shelter through my Love for Him. I long for my wife and I to raise children of Christ. I long to adopt the child of God, that our society considers a lost sheep. I long to spend eternity in Heaven with my one and only Creator. I Hunger for the True Bread of God!

Patience my Child
Patience my Child
Patience my Child

Each time I pray I feel God telling me this. "I have you here for a reason, this will happen in my timing". It brings me back to Isaiah 60 each time. "I am the Lord, in its time I will do this swiftly." 

Patience my Child
Patience

I believe this with all my Heart. I m just to impatient of a person. haha. about this time last year, I had finally realized that I wasnt in school for my self. I was in school for God. That he wanted me to have my education so that I could help him. This was a huge step for me, but I am continuing to learn how God wants me to serve him, and I am realizing that my "future plans" have nothing to do with what God will lead me to. In realzing this, even today, especially now, I am ready to tackle school and serve God in Ministry.

I just have this anxiousness to get out there already. I understand the amount of schooling I need to have to get my degree, But I am constantly trying to plan out these "longings" in my mind, and the timing of them. God keeps telling me, "Its not time yet, Just wait". I keep having to remind my self that he is in control of these situations, and That in fully trusting him I have to surrender these over to him. 

I trust you God! Give me the patience to surrender my will to you fully, and completely! I love you!

Since I have been back I have been praying about these things, and God has been revealing things to me in many ways. Not nessesarly answers, but realizations, and confirmation that he is in control, and not me.  This waiting that I keep feeling, is not waiting in Gods story. It is part of my spiritual journey through Christ. It may seem like waiting, and slow timing, but it is merley a blink of an eye in this short, temporary, human experience I am going through in my Spiritual Journey. 

Just this past week I was reading a blog post from my good friend Cassie. Cassie was an inturn this past summer in Mexico with me who I had the opportunity to Serve alongside of. She has an amazing Heart for ministry, and an inspiring personal relationship with God.
Her post title read "Waiting is..." before reading it, I sat back and chuckled for a second. I thought, ok God, Im listening. 

The post read...

Waiting is...
steadfast, that is holding on;
patience, that is holding back;
expectancy, that is holding the face up;
obedience, that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do;
listening, that is holding quiet and still so as to hear
"How long, Lord, must I wait?" "Nevermind, child. Trust me."
 
And so I wait, But in waiting I trust in my Savior to Guide me.
 
The Lord is my Everlasting God,
the Creator of all the Earth.
He never Grows weak or Weary.
No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless.
In our weakness and tiredness we may fall in exhaustion
But, Those who trust in the Lord will find new Strength.
They will soar high on wings like Eagles
They will run and not grow weary
They will walk and not grow faint
Our God, He reins Forever.....
He is My God! My Savior... and my Father!
 
Stregnth will Rise as we Wait upon the Lord, we will wait upon the Lord, we will Wait Upon the Lord......