"Listen to me my people;
hear me, my nation:
The Law will out from me;
my justice will become a light to the
nations.
My Righteousness draws near Speedily,
my Salvation IS on the way,
and my arm WILL bring justice to the
nations.
The islands will look to me
and WAIT in Hope for my Arms.
Lift up YOUR eyes to the Heavens,
look at the earth beneath;
the heavens will vanish like smoke,
the earth will wear like a garment,
and its inhabitants will die like flies.
BUT, my Salvation will last forever,
my Righteousness will NEVER Fail."
"For I am the Lord YOUR God,
who churns up the sea so that its waves roar--
The Lord Almighty IS his Name.
I have put my words in your mouth
and covered you with the shadow
of MY Hand---
I, who set the Heavens in place,
who laid the foundations of the earth,
say to You, "YOU ARE MY PEOPLE""
Isaiah 51:4-6, 15-16
God you made the Heavens and the earth, the sea and all that is with. And Your promise still remains. You give justice to week, You care for the widow, and orphaned. You love us. You have not only created us, but You have chosen us, and continue to choose us. You created us in your image, You breathed into us with your spirit and gave us life, Life in you. We were dead with out you, just a body, just a form. But you gave us life, you gave us Love, You gave us Joy, and passion, for you. You gave us the Joy to find you in others. You gave me the joy to find you in your Children.
This last couple weeks have been a very important part in my Life. My life being, a Child and Disciple of God. This is who I am, and who God has called me to be. Although this has been an important time for me, it has also been a stressful time. School is a Blessing, but my Heart is not here. My Heart is in Mexico with my Kids. But what I have been learning is how God uses us each day to make an impact on tomorrow. I have wanted to be an Architect since I was in the 7th Grade, why I never knew, but it fascinated me, and I loved the aspect of design, practical design. The First time I went to Mexico, I feel in Love. I Learned what it truly meant to have a personal relationship with God, and to pursue him with all my Heart. But this happened not through me, or through a staff member of group. But through a Child. I have never had any greater feeling of Love and passion, Hope, Joy, excitement, energy, than when Im spiritually filled by a child. When Im tired or beat after a day of work, and that little 45 pound body jumps on my lap with a smile from ear to ear, my Heart melts and leaps with an energy I have never experienced before.
What I didnt Understand a couple years ago, was what God was truly calling me to do. If it were up to me, I would have packed everything up, and moved to Mexico haha. But, God wasnt ready for to do that, nor was I ready at the time to do that. I am currently a senior at Miami University. I still have a year and a half left to get my BA in Architecture, and thin another year or two for my masters. In which upon my Graduation I have hopes to Move to Mexcio, or wherever God calls me at the time, and Serve his orphaned Child as an Architect for Ministry.
This semester has been extremely rough, especially these past couple weeks. Architecture is intense, haha, yes its crazy, why do I have a passion for it?? I dont know but God has given it to me for a reason. I have had so many droughts about if this is really what is right for me. God do you really want me to do this? and his usual answer is Uhhh Yea!! to which my response is usually " your killin me smalls" or ...Biggs...cause.. hes God....Ok never mind, haha. As school gets tougher though I am finding how much I need to lean in on Him, and spend so much of my time, just asking him for his guidance in every aspect of my life. And he has. It hasnt been easy but I trust him, I know that one day I will Serve his children full time, but now I have to do this, for Him, For his Children in the Future! John 16:33
Last week I had a big decision to make, and that was to where I thought God was calling me over this Thanksgiving. Guatemala, or Mexico? My good friend Kurt and I have been talking about setting up a new ministry site in San Marcos Guatemala, and the plan was for us to go down begin praying about what a ministry down there would look like. I wasnt sure if that was what God wanted me to do. I felt like he gave me this Heart for Mexico for a reason, that I miss the kids, I need and strive for that energy. I thought thats what I needed. But God said to me, "Do you Trust me" I said YES. "Then Follow Me" ok, where I said. "to the deepest place in your Heart. Because here you will truly discover who I am and what it means to Follow me." I prayed and prayed and Trusted God, because I knew I would Hear an answer. I dugg deep inside and prayed even more.
Last week I was listing to a sermon from John Piper. and he stated "God is most Glorified in you, When you are most satisfied in him, In...the midst of Loss, not prosperity. I thought and prayed about this, and I felt God telling me that, "yes I have given you a heart for these Children in Mexico, but most of all I have given you a heart for all my children who are orphaned. Follow me, and I will Lead you. Trust me and I will show you. Put aside your own desires and Follow Me. Follow me, Follow me....
So, This thanksgiving I will be traveling to Guatemala with Kurt and 3 others to, seek out the orphan child there. To per sue there Hearts and share the word of God with them. I am excited to be doing this, and I am not entirely sure what God has in store for me there long term, but I know that he has brought me to this for a reason and I Trust him in that.
Also I have been praying alot about what God wants me to do next summer. He has put On my heart Summer staff with B2B in Mexico. Next summer I will be working with Greg Huffer and Todd Guckenberger on Design aspects of the ministry. One being the New MdA site. This will be one of my responsibility's. I will also serve as support staff, to other staff members. Alot is still being worked out, but I am excited to see where God leads me in all this. I am also excited to start using what God has been teaching me in my education, in the ministry.
God I pray and thank you for all you have done for me. For guiding me, and leading me. for Picking me up when I am down or fail to see you God. Thank you for always giving me grace when I dont deserve it. Thank you for giving me a Heart for your Children.
I pray and Trust you in all you have planned for my life, and that wherever you lead me to, I will follow, and Trust in you.
I pray for all my friends, I pray for all my fellow interns, I pray for those who are struggling to find you, I ask that you be with those who are making life changing decisions, that they fully confide in you God. I pray For Cassie as she trusts in you God for answers. I know you will guide her and show her. I know the answer is in Her heart, deep inside, just as you have shown me. She is YOUR child God, and I know that you will comfort her soul, and give her peace.
I pray for Jarrad as he begins Chemo. I know that you have him at this point in his Life for a reason. I know that through this you are making not only him stronger, but also the community of Miami. You are bring non-Christians to you and Giving them Hope, and peace. I trust you God, I trust you God, I TRUST YOU GOD
I TRUST YOU GOD
I TRUST YOU GOD
Send me!! and I will follow!
